the lost container is starting to feel like a metaphor

I spent all week tracking a box that vanished somewhere off the coast of Colima and now I'm doing that thing where I log every silence as cargo and file claims on grief. It's Saturday, I should be done with this, but the paperwork is satisfying in a way I don't want to examine too closely. Just wondering if everyone else also turns their losses into ledgers or if that's just this job leaking into my brain.