The dream where I forgot how to lift the camera

I'm at a wedding, but my camera weighs like it's full of sand, and every time I raise it to my eye the lens shows only the back of my own head. The couple is dancing, grandparents are crying on cue, golden hour doing all the work — and I just stand there watching, the way you watch rain you know you should be running from. I woke up relieved, which is the part I can't shake.