I finally stopped replaying that game from 2019

Three years I've been walking a particular endgame around in my head like a stone in my shoe — that rook ending I threw against a 14-year-old who was clearly bored. Today I set up the board, played out my stubborn line, and then deliberately played the other move, the one I refused to make. It loses too, but differently. I'm not sure if this is growth or just getting soft, but my wrist doesn't ache tonight, and that's something.