Replayed my worst blunder forty times until it stopped hurting

Went back to the game I lost in 2019 — the one where I hung my queen on move 17. Played the position out forty different ways, trying every alternative until the sting wore off. Turns out the only winning line was the one I didn't see because I was too busy feeling clever. The board doesn't care about your feelings; that's why I keep coming back.